My grandmother left me on 11 April 2010, 4 plus in the morning.

It was a blow to me and i knew that i've lost a loved one.

Today, i accompany my grandmother throughout her last part of her journey. It was really a heart-wrenching kinda feeling. Tears just keep rolling down and my face was literally wet. I cant hold back anymore. She's once a very important person during my childhood years. Bringing me up, feeding me and taking care of me. She was my guardian angel, siding me whenever my parents reprimand or trying to beat me. She'll use herself to shield me and protect me.

I love her.

She's a great grandmother that loves her grandchildren alot. She especially dote me the most because i was the closest to her. I was a little dragon baby in the whole family line. She always save the best for me and teaches me what was right and wrong.

After living for the past 21 years, I knew a truth about my family background. My mother was also shock about our background. We have a mix blood of a pure peranakan. My grandmother's mother a was pure peranakan. That makes me and me mother a Nonya. My brothers, a Baba. I didn't know all these things when i saw photos and birth certs of my grandmother, my grandmother's mother and grandmother's granny. Those old photos of my family tree make me kinda dumbfound when all these past few years, i thought i was just a chinese, NO wonder i had such big eyes and always mistaken as a malay. So that explains why.

I was supposed to come from a rich family too because my grandfather's dad owns a goldsmith shop. But due to some issues, the family kinda broke off due the 3 wives my grand-grandfather has. It's complicated i can say. And i was told that our family was a respectable one years back. I feel kinda proud of my family tree.

So, i'm officially half a Nonya who doesn't speaks Malay and hokkien well. -_-'''

Whatever it is, my grandmother is reunited with my grandfather, her son and her relatives. I hope she's happy and i will miss her deeply in my heart.