If only i can turn back time, i really wouldn't have done all these. But what's the point of saying all these. It's too late.

My father is contacted with liver cancer and he has less than a year to live. I couldn't believe what i heard what really going to happen to me. I regretted having heated arguments with him and making him really angry with me. Shouting, Yelling and screaming at him. I didn't have a good relationship with him at all for these past few years. But things started changing after i realise that my mum and dad did actually love me the most and love me alot. I took it for granted and didn't care how they feel.

It's all too late~! Just as i was having a better relationships with my dad, he's not going to live any longer. I still rmb celebrating his birthday the very first time. Bring our whole family to have steamboat at Vivo City. I still rmb the smiles on his face. He's happy. But... I couldn't anymore. I really wanted to celebrate his birthday every year with him. I wan to call Daddy whenever i'm home and know he'll always be there.

But wat's the point of all these now. I'm gonna lose him and i will lose him. It's the fact. Before i parted at the hospital, i give him a tight hug and smell him deeply. I wanted to rmb the smell that he has and his warmth hug. I wan to hug him everyday. I wouldn't quarrel with him anymore. I wun make him sad anymore....

I dunno how am i gonna do without him.. I'm lost...